Tarbatu (Tartu) and back

A week ago or so, Tartu had autumn days - a week full of different stuff, entertaining, educational, useful, etc. Who doesn't remember, then Tartu is this biggest small city in Estonia.. pretty nice place. In that time there was also party named Maailmamustrid (Patterns of the World), where Kudrun's boyfriend Martin is DJ. Maailmamustrid is actually the series of parties for people interested of different cultures of the world. This time also Bombillas, a gifted reggae and dub band made a gig there. Martin even tried to get me to play music there (I have not probably wrote here, but I'm beginner DJ too), but this time I didn't dare yet.. but perhaps in a next one or one after that. Because Kudrun and Martin have a tiny little babyboy now, Kudrun sadly couldn't come to the party. She said that she herself too would like some time for her own and some recreation, but whatcha gonna do. And I would be happy to dance with her. Now I danced alone. Just didn't seem so good idea to ask someone random to dance at Tartu. For some reason so many of the girls seemed to be somewhat reserved in their nature. But maybe this was only my paranoia.

Actually, now I got too far ahead with the story. Rewind selecta! I start again with how I hitchhiked to Tartu. Weather is already cold, not at all perfect for hitching a ride. I had gloves on hands but still. On the Tartu highway I exchanged some words with a teenage girl who tried to get the ride to Viljandi.. and soon, gone she was, and can't say that it took me long either. A nice, intelligent looking and quite young woman, who had much to talk with me about theater and art, picked me up. Straight ride to Tartu.. perfect.

As soon as I got to Tartu, I went to Gerli's place. Now she lives in a new place, and as I still don't know Tartu entirely, I thought it would be pretty hard to find it, but I accidentally stumbled to the right place. This is my kind of luck. With Gerli and her flatmate (about whom I long ago suspected that he is now Gerli's boyfriend. Now it's certain. They seem to fit well, but still it made me feel somewhat uncomfortable to stay there) we watched one really beautiful (both in visual and by story) anime "5 centimeters per second" (the average speed of the falling cherryblossom), that in many ways almost as would have talked about me. Well not the main plot entirely, but still, many scenes and storylines reminded me things. After that Gerli had to go to library to do some assignment for university, and I went to check out Kudrun's littleguy.

Kaspar (the name of their son) sleeped in absolute peace, but Martin of course had to demonstarte him to me, and waked him up just like that. Kaspar was hasty to get to this world, so he was born a month ahead in normal time. By the way, sometime I and him, we must speak about that, as because of him I could not see Kudrun with big belly ;) So, at the time of my visit he really should had right time for birth, and I don't know if just my memory doesn't serve me well, or was he really smallest baby I have seen. At least I don't remember that I had seen my sisters as so small and with such look that couldn't yet grasp the surroundings. Kudrun said that this is same with every baby, so it is probably just because I don't remember things that I saw last time over eightteen years ago. And, his skin was yellowish that was supposed to be usual for pretime babies. But actually I think that Kaspar was really cute and beautiful baby. I even got to hold him and Kudrun then wanted to take photos of us. When just sitting in my lap he was peacful, but when Kudrun wanted to take pictures, Kaspar started to cry.. so in photos we are not very pretty. I don't know, Kudrun for some reason said to me that I have a good effect to distracted moms, animals and little children. First one is probably true, as who could resist my charm :) and also the second came true, as when we watched this animation, Gerli's cat find a good place on my tummy, put his head under my jacket and had a good nap. But at least for me it seemed that Kaspar was not so thrilled about extra attention.

After some time I went back to Gerli's place where we had some wine before going to the party. Party itself was really great, but I felt as stranger there. At first I thought that probably I like DJ played things more, but actually Bombillas surprised me more than I believed. They created good energy. But after that Gerli and that guy (yeah.. like I would remember his name) went to home.. and after an hour or so I followed. After all, I was pretty tired this day, and because the problems with sleeping this night too (stranger place and all.. not to mention the refridgerator that periodically loudly buzzed), the next day wasn't much better. At least then I was equal companion for Kudrun who had not had good sleep for long too.

Next day we walked outside. Kaspar sleeped well in the pushcart. We visited the exhibition of my former graphics teacher. And suddenly I got used to with Tartu.. suddenly I felt that I like there, although mostly I have prefered more bigger and more energetic Tallinn. Kudrun even showed me one house and said that it would be so cool if I'd live there. And yes.. sometimes I too think that it would be perfect to live in Tartu. I have some friends there whom I love. But then again, I have such people in Tallinn too. So I'm split to love both Tallinn and Tartu. I wonder what happens when I go to travelling around the world.. leaving constantly behind people I have grown to love.. yet already now, I feel like I have no one and right home, but only option is to make the entire world my home and my people.

For a little while we went again to Kudrun's and Martin's and Kaspar's place.. so that I could get some warmth before going back to Tallinn. I get to try out Martin's DJ console and discplayers, and Kudrun got herself private party. It was really hard to leave, although I was already waited in Tallinn. I was invited to Liisi's housewarming party, and of course I went there even though I craved for shower, own home food and own bed.

Yeah, not only was hard to leave my dear friends, even weather was not so good for travelling anymore. As soon as I got out, a light rain started. When last day even sun and patches of blue sky were ocacsionally seen and cold was not too bad, then now suddenly such a bad weather. Perhaps I'm one of those whose moods cause the weather changes :p On the border of Tartu I united with another hitchhiker and luckily again pretty soon we got a ride. Yet this time we weren't so lucky to get straight to Tallinn, and as on the road rain got more and more harder, we were really worried. But of course for brave adventurers like we are, weather had even more surprises for us. Soon rain turned to heavy snowfall, and all the land was quickly covered with white carpet. I had worried that soon it is too dark to hitch, but landscape had suddenly turned to absolute pure white. And although it was beautiful, it was much colder now than just hour or so ago. And of course, heavy snowfall made visibility harder for drivers, so more dangerous for us.. and more harder to get a ride too. Then I called to Liisi, to say that probably I will be late, and to ask how is the weather in Tallinn. She said that in Tallinn it rains a little bit, for what I answered that it is relatively good then. Yet over our hopes we got another ride to Tallinn I guess in less than 15 minuts. Again very nice young women with whom it was interesting to talk about various things. On the half way from there to Tallinn it again started to rain and when we finally arrived at Tallinn, normal rain had already turned to weaker kind of storm with heavy rainfall and strong wind, both really cold. This lady was so kind and caring that she offered to take us both to where we needed to go, but we felt that this would be already too great comfort. So we decided as a compromise that she drives to one location where we both have not a very long way to go. Though I'm sure this woman doesn't find this writing here I am really grateful to her. And actually I'd use this possibility to thank here everyone who gives a ride to hitchhikers.

Five minuts going through the violent weather felt like much longer, but at least when I got to Liisi's new appartment, there were warm rooms, warm hearts of people and hot pancakes with tea greeting me. I wouldn't write much about that night and the next day, just as it was normal appartment sitting, and simple nice time there. One thing though. I got acquinted with one guy from Greece, and if I get with my things so far that I can go to my trip to India, then maybe I do another "little" excursion through Greece too. For a fact Greece is pretty much the most inviting Mediterranean country for me.. or at least one of these most inviting. Or maybe I would do just a Greece trip first.. of course through Austria. But then again, when already in Greece.. then why not to go straight to India.. and when in India, why not to go further.. to Thailand, to Japan.. why ever stop?

One more thing about the baby theme. Another of my really early friend, Piia is visiting Estonia with her little daughter. For a two years at least I had not seen her, and of course never seen a little Lola. So I visited them too today. Piia was great as always, and Lola was very lively nine month old girl. And I think we got along pretty well. So maybe Kudrun was right after all.. Kaspar just has to grow a little and get used to with the world and being alive. Then we can start learning how to kick a ball and do some other fun things :D

Tomorrow or some day soon I should write how yesterday I did a little bit work for a change.. with kids of course. Or can I say it was work just because I got paid for it.. as it actually was also pure fun, and the mission for me. And I should write a little about the politics in Estonia too.. as it is hot theme right now.

Click on the image for full size. Love and strength to you all!

Wild and wicked west

I wrote a shortstory last night. But before that few comments about it. It is dedicated to everyone to whom I have been cruel or intolerant. Though I fight to my death against smokers, it is even to them. It's to the gays to whom I once were really intolerant. Its to my family for many things I shouldn't have done or said. If you ever feel that I have somehow harmed you, then it is for you. And of course it is for everyone for just a good surreal reading experience.

So.. at the wild and wicked west..

When Blue Bear walked into the saloon, all eyes turned to him. Paleface Jimmie was then facing the bar and turned around too. Slowly. He watched the Bear and Bear stared him back. Stared right into his eyes so sharply that the gaze drilled the small hole through Jimmie's head, and even the last bit of wisdom he had remaining, escaped out from there. Jimmie was calm. Yet all other men also saw how confident and brave were the buttony black eyes of the Blue Bear.

After a moment standing at the saloon door that was needed for Bear's eyes to get used with the darknes of the room, and to find Jimmie among all men, and the moment of these uncomfortable stares, he walked straight to bartable next to the man. He asked bartender to bring two whiskies. With unexpected quick move he turned to Jimmie. The move that made his shiny and well-cut hair to wave, caused an amazement among not only bargirls, but also of many men. "Surely the work of an proffessional barber, and not a cheap one at all; just look how fleecy it is;" and "his hairstylist must be a gay," were few of many comments they made. But Jimmie didn't care. Jimmie had always hated both gays and Blue Bear. And so far Blue Bear had been a furious opponent. Jimmie had never failed so many attempts to kill somebody. But now, Blue Bear wanted a truce.

"I have something for you," Bear said and reached under his furry coat. Some Jimmie's gunslingers were already on the line of taking Bear down, when they saw it was only a peacepipe he took out. Blue Bear now ordered some tobacco too. Expensive one.

"So what is it gonna be?" He asked, "Will you take my peace offering? The violence will only do harm for both of us and to the innocent bystanders. Surely we both have other more important things to do than trying to skin eachother. It would be most wise to end this ill blood.

Jimmie was silent and didn't move a muscle. He was a proud man. Blue Bear made an hard step closer. Now he was so close that he could easily bite off Jimmie's head. Jimmie's face turned from normal to even more pale, but who would have boldness to say he was afraid. Not me anyway, and of course none of the people in the saloon even noticed this.

"We both love tobacco," Blue Bear continued forcing the pipe to the mouth of Jimmie, "so lets have a few coughs and take some time to think about it reasonably.. ok?!"

Although all the smoke came out from the hole in back of Jimmie's head, it was clear it was a good stuff, as it looked like he would already be trippin' in the another world. Bear wasn't cheap when trying to negotiate. And no-one could resist such lavish gifts. Strong new scent spread around the hall. Everyone were almost melted in anticipation. As soon as barman found a fitting bottlecap for the hole in the head, Paleface Jimmie too found the peace. Peace with all the world, with Blue Bear, with sherif, and Billy, his naighbour who had just angered him by stealing some cattle under his guard. And he even made peace with the freaky gay hairstylists.