The one after the last

It was already 28 years ago when I was born. Or was it that long time ago. Just twenty eight, or twenty eight the damn forever - when was that. This year I have had many days when time runs exactly at the right pace.. how I like. Yet not all the time. Last year time run too fast, I think. Some fast going years, some really slow going.. so how long ago it was.. my birth, I mean? 28 spins around the Sun. At this day it seems like forever, but it's clear that I haven't been forever. How should I know how much time I have been in this form. If twenty eight years would be so same amount for us, then I should also have some insight how much time it takes for me to get 56 years old. As much more as I already have lived. Same much more these short or long years, months and days, that all are composed of seconds.. and seconds you can easily count: one, two, three.. That is how easily we can feel the pace of time, but never understand or remember it. 28 years - I know that concept, yet even after living through that time I don't know exactly what it means.

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It was the time of folksong festival in Estonia.. Sadly, I wasn't there (at Viljandi where it was held). In the beginning of weekend we went to Tallinn to play pool with friends.. just a good social time. Pool is simple enjoyment, friends are basically ordinary.. what I like most about these kinds of rides is that these almost all the time end at the night times. Well, I'm the night person. I like the night already because of the night sky, the feeling at night, and that peacefulness (not silence itself.. but night is when people normally don't work.. they unwind). I love the city at night, I'm fascinated to watch different people.. yet at night it feels even better. At nights people are more free, more social. We saw some pretty weird kinds.. few really talkative girls, some guys who liked to buy night snack in underwear, etc.
Yesterday, one of my earliest friends came back to home for a while after working in Norway. So I went to see him too. And today I read the blog of two guys who already have traveled to India by land, and once more to Iran.. and been to north-western Africa. When still in Europe (in these old soviet states Ukraine and Moldova) they already had so much trouble that they really scared the shit out of me about any official who can extort something from travelers so easily. Of course I haven't planned to go through these countries.. if I even can get so far as starting my voyage.
Huh.. I'm quite tired tonight.. so I think I go to sleep now. Peace and love!

SOCA - Summer Outdoors Chillin' Atmosphere

It was my birthday again, and again a day before me was birthday of my very good friend. Actually at 16th it was birthday of Max, at 17th Martin's, at 18th mine, and at 19th of Ats' girlfriend, who all were celebrating it at Martin's grandma's place. Really fantastic site - green and cozy.. and when we add the sunny weather that is always definite at the time of the birthdays of me and Martin (guess we have some really good friends among the higher powers), then there is almost nothing that can ruin the mood. Well yeah, Max had problems with his girlfriend (now possibly ex-girlfriend) that troubled me littlebit.

I went to Kiviloo (the place where Martin's grandmother lives) earlier than other our friends,.. helped with things and just enjoyed the peace there, started reading the final book of the Lian Hearn's "Tales of the Otori" and enjoyed the really good company of Martin's relatives. They show me a family of seven or eight hedgehogs living under one of the bushes in the garden. One of Martin's relatives had printed a page of information about hedgehogs.. so we took it all through. Did you know, hedgehogs have 16000 thorns. It just made me wonder if they all have exactly 16000 or are there some +/- versions too.

These hedgehogs were not only little cuties who got attention. There was extremely beautiful and tidy cat who, as Martin said had wandered off from his real home and ended up here.. without any sign of intentions to leave. He had really cool pattern with somewhat leopard-like dots at the sides and zig-zaging thin stripes over his back and head. Tail was mainly onecoloured but ended with light orangeish brown stripes. I asked Martin what is the cat's name and he said that he calls him Puma. Yet at one point one of our friends called the littleguy a Lynx (Ilves in estonian), from what I finally got his new name, Toomas Hendrik Ilves (To those who don't know, our Estonian president has aforementioned name too).

I hadn't partied for a while now.. as I still don't have a real job, it's understandable. So we basically stayed up whole night, but for the reason to test the tent, I slept for four hours in the morning. Tent is very simple, easily put up in about a minut. But I fear it won't hold rain. Well, testing the tent was important because in october I hope to start my journey to India, and that by the land either by hitchhiking or by bicycle.. with only some parts of Iran and Pakistan by trains or busses. Although plan is pretty much thought out already, the fact that I'd need quite a sum of cash too, is somewhat breaking the dream. For now I have a little illustrating gig for Kudrun's book about Estonia, and a really more of a hobby thing as an actor in one of upcoming commercial shooting in Latvia. But I'd need at least two months job with fine or even good salary.. and october is coming so fast. The reason why I want to go in october is because this is the utmost best time to travel through Europe before the cold (and hopefully it doesn't rain so much either), and get to Mid-East just as the weather gets fine for travel there. If I'd get to Pakistan-India area in december it should be perfect as monsoon season should just be over then. At least my mood is good for a change and I'm at the peak of strong will. I don't even know what I would do in India, but I guess if I have strong belief then probably I will survive. And for sure I'd like to meet some friends out there around the world.. and of course I would like to find many new friends too.

But what more to say about the birthday?! Oh, the (ex)girlfriend of Max didn't want to believe that i'm already 28. At first she thought that I'm joking.. then she asked me to look into her eyes and say it again. In contrary to my own view lately, she said that I'm looking well younger.. what is good. Heh, my granny told about one of the earliest guys with whom her other daughter (not my mum) met. This guy was as they say, a babyface.. really looking younger, having reddish glow on his face.. such a favourite for many gyals. But he tried to learn to smoke. Granny asked then, why he so much wants to learn to smoke.. is it something to be more cool or something. He then answered that he wants to look older. That made me laugh with the feeling of sadnes for this dumbass who is not happy with the young prettyboy look.

Even the celebration at home with family was ok.. better than last year. Didn't feel wrong somehow, even though I don't have so good relations with them lately. Mum even made her own baked cake which is rare thing.

Ok.. I think that I'm gonna read the book now.. yes the same earlier mentioned Otori one. Really, it's one of my favorites.. semihistoric story with some features of fiction and fantasy taking place in the medieval Japanesque land. Ok, there is not much of the real history, but depiction of things, conditions, people and their manners and habits, their nature is well following the real history. As the writer is women, it still even after four books really amazes me how well she writes through the eyes of a man, how well she knows the tactics of war, and how perfectly she depicts the war itself and the managing it between the battles. Now, don't think that this book is some bloody war story.. no actually this is the story of great love, honor and friendship with much more attention on human soul than anything I've read before. With the four earlier books I have really felt such strong feelings for the characters like only the "All quiet on Western Front" have made me feel.

Ok, so.. I'll finish here. Be good my friends!